What do you do when you meet a specter from your past, especially one who has haunted you for years?
You have several options:
1. You walk past him like a stranger. Head held high, back straight as a rod, and eyes fixed at some vague object in the distance. Perhaps your peripheral vision will work over time and your mind will go on over drive:
“Is he well? Is he with another? Can he see me? What does he think of me now?”
2. You can also act like everything in your world is right and perfect. To show him that you’ve move on, that you no longer care, and damn him for ever letting you go.
Suddenly, you laugh even louder. You make animated contributions in a conversation that’s been totally boring you to death. You flip your hair, dance like you’ve never danced before, and drink more wine than you normally would.
3. You can also do something quite difficult. You can smile at him and risk another rejection. If he smiles back, you can approach him and say, “Hi, how’s life treating you?”
Maybe you’ll talk about the old times and revisit fond memories. Remember that time you ran through a downpour, stopping every now and then to kiss? What about that time you both got lost in a foreign city? Your feeble attempts at charade with the locals was so hilarious, thinking about it still makes you smile.
Or maybe, you both won’t say anything at all. Perhaps language becomes obsolete when the heart speaks. You communicate with your eyes, your smile, the shake of your head, the subtle movements of your body. It will be as if meeting an old friend – someone you know so well, you can read him like the pages of your favorite book.
Then, painful as it may be, you shall have to say good-bye once more. Because he’s no longer yours and you are no longer part of his world.
You, too, have moved on years ago. You no longer love him.
It’s just that sometimes, colliding with the past brings a rush of melancholia, of what ifs and what could have beens. Those are the things that stay with you long after the good byes.
- Dress from Sophie Paris
- Necklace from SM Accessories
- Bracelet from Charlotte Russe
- Belt from Primo at the SM Store
- Shoes from Ferretti
The photos were taken outside Chef Bernard in Makati. They serve amazing food! Blogging about them soon! 🙂
Also, this post was inspired by this beautiful video.
Photos by Rhea Bue and Johan Sy of Studiyo Photography