What can be more difficult than loving someone from a distance?
I cannot even begin to explain the experience.
I should start with the constant longing that accompanies me day by day, the phrase “wish you were here” throbbing in my mind. I should also mention the countless nights I spend tossing and turning because I cannot silence the mocking emptiness that reverberates too loudly as soon as I close my eyes.
Sometimes, I look at a blank wall and imagine your face there. I reach out to caress it, wishing my touch could warm its cold surface. But I am not Pygmalion. My hands hold no magic. I end up crying at the futility of the situation.
Loving someone from afar is learning to live with an ache that has a cure beyond my reach. Everyday is a test of trust and love. Patience has become my friend. Hope, my constant companion.
Yet why do I persevere despite the obvious difficulties?
Maybe because I believe in fate. There was a one in a billion chance that we would meet and fall in love. Yet we found each other, despite living in different parts of the globe. That’s fate. Who am I to ignore it?
Also, you remind me of the constancy of love in the midst of ever-moving time. For the tears shed, for all the words spoken, there lingers the essence of a deeply – rooted affection that finds nourishment in the bonds between us.
When my heart wanders with dreams of great adventures, you temper it with the reminder of your steadfast embrace. You have never failed to be where I want you most to be – tangled with my heart and soul.
Though not in the literal sense, you, you’re always there. You are my sentinel. You are my port. Though far my ship has sailed, it knows no other way home but that path that leads to you.
Lastly, it’s because when I learned to love you, it was as if a billion atoms exploded. My body burned and glimmered. Tears threatened to overflow. The intensity blew me away. My heart… I guess it’s yours forever.
- Button down shirt – Gelibean Couture
- Silver Skirt – Forever 21
- Orange necklace from Sugar Rush
- Pearl strands from SM Accessories
- Shoes from Parisian
Photos by Rhea Bue
P.S. This post was partly inspired by the movie Like Crazy. Most of it though was based on personal experience. 🙂